LaTina

Ariani Querida Alejandra Marie Sanchez

7 pounds 0.6 ounces

19.5 inches long

 September 28th, 2009 @8:07 a.m.

pronunciation….  Ariani = “R” “E” on “E Querida = Care “E” duh 

 and so much for my 15 lb. crash diet ;)  I had a 7 pound baby and lost…. drumroll please…. 3 pounds.  My toes look like sausages, my feet look like balloons and I can’t fit my legs into the jeans I wore TO the hospital to have her (I was planning on wearing them home too, but….)

 We’re home safe and sound, I have pics, but no ambition right now (it’s 3am).  She’s the sweetest little thing I can’t wait for you all to see her.  Idk when I’ll get back on here…. hopefully things will be easier when I can go home (stairs… so I’m at my mom’s upstairs in her spare room until at least my checkup Tuesday, then maybe I can go home)  My C-sect went great, no drama like the other ones, it’s up and down, so no stomach muscles… I wish I had thought to do more squats and tricep dips, cuz I have to use my arms and legs to TRY not to use my abs (is there ANYTHING you can do w/o using your core muscles?!?   UGH)

 all for now… I think she’s really asleep this time (she fakes me out a lot… dozes for 15 min, then when I lay down…. AWAKE!!) so, I’m going to follow suit and sleep too.

thanks for all the well wishes on my last blog

I’m going on a crash diet, I’m going to lose 15+ pounds in less than 24 hours!!!

lol, anyway, I’ll be gone untill Thurs, maybe a bit later.  Next update will be about my baby, and maybe the birth if there was anything exciting to share.  Nancy has given me some instruction on posting pics in a blog… HOPEFULLY I’ll be able to do it.  Or maybe one of my kids can… if not, I’ll put one as my profile pic and ask for more help!

 Same as I asked my team, if any one posts something that they think I’d really want/need to know, plz mail me, cuz I will never be able to catch up on a week’s blogs while recovering from my C-sect.

Just wanted to dig this old blog out and repost it where I can get to it easily in the next few weeks.  I’m waiting to see what I weigh after the baby is born to decide whether to keep these same exact mini-goals or make new ones.  I’ll probably keep these, since I can basically start anywhere and just head for the next mini-goal… I was 189 when I found out that I was pregnant… 197 when I actually got pregnant, so I’ve put on a bit, but it’s hard to tell how much will stick with me.  With my other kids I’ve lost between 15 and 35 pounds, so I don’t even have a guess to go on with that.  I’ll know soon enough.  My first weigh in on my old team will be Fri/Sat, Oct 2/3 depending on how things are going here, that will be my “kinda” starting weight.  I can’t wait to start my chart going back down instead of steadily up!!  I’m hoping the weather holds, cuz after my C-sect I will probably only be able to do walking as my main exercise and I’ll want to take the baby in his/her stroller and not worry (too much) about it being too cold.  I’m hoping to work up to being able to walk clear to my daughter’s middle school in a timely fashion, I’d like us all 3 to walk to school in the mornings… my poor babygirl put on 15 pounds my first trimester!  So, I’m hoping a nice morning walk will help us all get some exercise, plus it will give her and I time to talk and (hopefully the baby will be a stroller-sleeper) have “alone time”.

Starting at 240lbs and subtracting 5% for each mini-goal (not counting the first one which I arbitrarily set at 225):

Start: 240  April 28, 2008…. I stumbled upon BuddlySlim on a google search and started my journey.

Goal #1 228 (225)  I hit 225 on June 27, 2008

Goal #2 217  I hit 217 on August 9, then again on my birthday August 25, but on the way up, then on September 5, I passed it on the way back down, hitting 216.

Goal #3 206  I hit my 3rd goal October 24.

Goal #4 196  Friday, December 12, my first mini-goal below 200.  No gains between reaching mini-goals 3 & 4! 

Goal #5 186

Goal #6 177

Goal #7 168

Goal #8 160

Goal #9 152

Goal #10 144

Goal #11 137

Goal #12 130

Goal #13 124

As you can see from my new profile pic, I’ve gained a few inches around the middle… to say the least!  The thing that amazes me, and I wanted to get down in black and white before I lost it, is PERSPECTIVE.  I can SEE and FEEL how much bigger I am than I was in January…. but a couple days back, I dug out my “starting jeans” the ones that I decided were “it” NO BIGGER… then they ripped out in the legs one day when I squatted down…

So, I dug out these jeans… they seem about my size, as I was losing weight, I never felt that I was getting any smaller, so I assume that these would fit fine over my legs and such… but what I wasn’t expecting is that they are LOOSE on the waist.  How can I be THIS MUCH BIGGER… without having gotten that same amount smaller ?!?

So what I can’t see is myself being smaller, doesn’t seem to sink in…  I’m keeping these jeans, I hope that when I put them on they will make me internalize my weight loss, I can see the numbers on the scale change, but I don’t FEEL smaller….  so my hope, with this blog, is that when I’m feeling like I’m not changing, or worse “never” going to change, that I will re read this and realize how far I’ve come already, that I AM making progress, that I HAVE gotten smaller, that I DO look and feel better (albeit not at this very second, but in general!) that CHANGES have occured… and it will motivate me to keep going, keep doing, keep reaching.

Just wanted to blog this out, a lot of times just writing it down helps me work out my issues.  So, I’m almost 20 weeks pregnant, and was cool with the fact that I was getting bigger, I hadn’t gotten rid of my bigger clothes, so I had practically new stuff to wear as I went from 14 to 16 to 18… but today I woke up HUGE, like SERIOUSLY bigger than yesterday…. I COULDN’T wear my jeans…

So I look down, I look like I gained ALL my weight back…. ugh… I haven’t, I’m just, um… fluffy??  idk, but when I see how big I am, I want to eat big.  Kind of the opposite of when I was losing, how as I got smaller, I wanted to eat smaller (usually) and keep up the progress.  Today it’s been a struggle to not just sit and stuff my face with junk.  And why?  Because I look fat, or feel fat, or???  idk, it seems counter-productive in black and white, but…  grr, just frustrated I guess

 I’m not trying to LOSE weight, or even MAINTAIN… but I don’t want to undo all of the good changes I’ve made, they were healthy for me, and they are healthy for the baby, and there’s no logical reason to stop… and definately not a good idea to stop because I’m bigger…  idk, hormones??  I’m just not being very logical right now… ok, quitting my rambling, hope I feel better  tomorrow!

Well, I’ve hit a bigger speed bump than any I’ve had thus far in my journey… a baby bump…

 I’ve avoided blogging about it, or sharing it on the forums thus far because I was very, very, VERY upset at the news, and  with others on here who would welcome a child at any stage in their lives, I felt it best not to come on here and complain about my “burden”.   I actually had been hoping for grandchildren in the near future…. and with my youngest clocking in at 12 feel a bit out of place in the “new mommy” lineup.  But, as with much in life, WE only get to control so much, so… I’m sure there’s a plan for this little one…

 So, my journey is on pause for now, but I am going to try and keep my weight gain to a minimum, the doctor said 10-15 pounds is fine since I am bigger to start with, so if I stay in that range, I should be right back on plan after the baby comes, and if I gain a bit more… well, it will be just like the other little slips we all go through… just a little longer on the losing path…

 On a bright note, I had yet to get rid of any of my “fat” clothes, so although I have left my 14’s and 16’s in the dust , I still have PLENTY of room in the 24’s and 2x shirts (for now) that I started in.  I’m doing my own recycling

 I have 2 different due dates… one from the perinatologist, and one from the regular ob, but going with the specialist’s date, I can expect to deliver via C-sect close to  Sept 20 at 39 weeks. 

 I guess that’s all the details one give when making the big announcement, sorry if I’ve left anything out, I’m a bit (ok, WAY) out of practice!

[QUOTE=16314;154999]In an ironic twist of events, the sole remaining participant, and therefore winner, of the LL4 contest had a gain this week, making the 8 week and final total of LL4 -136.6 pounds.

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[QUOTE=16314;155000]:D Congratulations to the winner of LL4, [COLOR=”Red”]Tina[/COLOR], and our 1st Runner Ups, [COLOR=”Blue”]Debbi, Debbie, Dara, Danielle, and Samantha.[/COLOR]:D[/QUOTE]

TO: God.com
Dear Lord,

Every single evening
As I’m lying here in bed,
This tiny little Prayer
Keeps running through my head:

God bless all my family
Wherever they may be,
Keep them warm
and safe from harm
For they’re so close to me.

And God, there is one more thing
I wish that you could do;
Hope you don’t mind me asking,
Please bless my computer too.

Now I know that it’s unusual
To Bless a motherboard,
But listen just a second
While I explain it to you, Lord.

You see, that little metal box
Holds more than odds and ends;
Inside those small compartments
Rest so many of my friends.

I know so much about them
By the kindness that they give,
And this little scrap of metal
Takes me in to where they live.

By faith is how I know them
Much the same as you.
We share in what life brings us
And from that our friendships grew.

Please take an extra minute
From your duties up above,
To bless those in my address book
That’s filled with so much love.

Wherever else this prayer may reach
To each and every friend,
Bless each e-mail inbox
And each person who hits ’send’.

When you update your Heavenly list
On your own Great CD-ROM,
Bless everyone who says this prayer
Sent up to GOD.com

Amen

Ok, baby steps, quit stressing, just go back to how you started. More water, more fiber, more protein balance with meals, ONE serving… seconds will always be there. Why diverge from the path that served you so well for so many months? Did the magic weighloss fairy come down and sprinkle “no-cal” dust on all the pizza and sweets around you? um… I’m thinking “no”… so, that means that it’s up to YOU to stick to what you know is right. Would it taste good? Of course… that’s why you want it. Would it FEEL good? Of course, for the moment… Is that worth undoing everything? Um…. I’m thinking “no”… so, grab a little bit of that inner strenght, blog, check in on your buddies…. you WILL BE at 195 this Friday. You’ve told too many people to back down from that now… SO, that means 2 more days of eating right and doing what needs to be done. 2 days, that’s not much… I know you can do that, just 2. Today and tomorrow.

Ok, so back to the store, another box of Zoe (could fill in for lunch/dinner too) A couple ff greek yougurts, very filling, tasty and only 140 cal.  A new find… vanilla soy milk with added fiber and a bunch of other goodness, by 8th Continent… ABSOLUTELY delicious and only 80 cal per cup (I’ve been drinking plain ol’ skim at 90!)

I’m feeling so much better already, although a little bloated… probably from actually eating veggies/fruits/fiber yesterday…. and I’m feeling READY to see the scales moving again.  I’m now tiring of being at the same weight that I was in December… besides, I have that new mini-goal, and I’ve been hitting one every 2 months…. don’t want to screw that up

I got a comment yesterday to pretend that I WAS on track, and I’m still a little in “fake it till you make it” mode, but I’m feeling better.  Hopefully a couple more days and I’ll see a NEW number on those scales!